I was giving a massage the other day when all of a sudden, I noticed my hands were shaking. Not exhausted , tired shaking from doing deep massage work, but nervous, out of control shaking. Of course, once I noticed that, I then moved on to notice a rapid heart rate, light headedness and heat. Hot flash? Maybe. Freakin' out that I am going to faint during this massage? At this point, definitely. I thought I was going down. That would be lovely wouldn't it? To all of a sudden have your therapist drop to the floor? To be laying on a comfy, warm massage table, totally relaxed, and all of a sudden the massage stops and you hear a thud? Wow, I bet that's a massage she would have never forgotten!
I managed to calm myself down by focusing on the very relaxing music my clinic plays for our clients, I focused on the massage and the client, who had gotten some time away from her little ones to enjoy some time to herself. I really didn't need to transfer my issues to her! Maybe, though, I was taking on her energy and it just took me over. I prefer to think it was that and not a hot flash. A panic attack wouldn't be unheard of. I've only had a few in my lifetime and I was able to attribute their onset to certain things. Not this time. According to my most recent doctor's appointment, I shouldn't be experiencing these things YET. My mom had an emergency hysterectomy when she was 41, maybe 42 (my age), so I can't really ask her when menopause set in for her to try to gauge what I should expect based on genetics.
As soon as the massage was over, I ran to the office and grabbed the essential oil that we use on clients with "anxiety." I think I sniffed that little bottle so hard that the oil came sucking out and right up my nose. It did seem to help. If it happens again, I am going to go one step further and drop a few drops under my tongue! I can also assume that giving up caffeine may help, but I don't see that happening unless this little phenomena starts repeating itself on a reguar basis.