Fifteen days until I leave for Hawaii. I am getting the question a lot - "Are you excited?" Of course, the answer is yes. But for someone with Generalized Anxiety Disorder, the excitement does not come without some, well, anxiety. Most of it is about flying. I really don't mind flying. However, I don't like to fly without my entire family. I guess I would just prefer we all go down in a flaming ball of fire together. I know, it sounds selfish and I don't TOTALLY mean it. It's irrational and sick, but that's the way my brain works.
I have thought about several solutions to handling this 12 hour flight (there and then back again!). My first one is my usual fall back - drugs. Prescription drugs. Good ones. Then I think, "Well, if the plane does go down and there is any chance of survival, I should probably be alert." Imagine if I had been on the Hudson River plane and not been alert enough to get myself out of that plane. I would have been the only non-survivor. Oh, and maybe the person who went down trying to save my life. So I am not sure drugs are the way to go, but I am guessing I will have them with me on the flight just in case.
Second fall back is a good book. But hey, in 12 hours, I may need about three good books, each way. I'm not sure there are currently three/six books I want to read. I guess I could read all of my book club list. Maybe I'll do that.
The third fall back is not really a good one either. Mainly because it puts the person next to me in an awkward situation. Who really wants to talk to a stranger for an extended period? I know plane etiquette and I usually follow it myself. Don't talk to the person in the seat next to you. But really, if I could just talk non-stop, preferably to the person next to me, (I think talking to myself non-stop would probably get me dropped off the flight somewhere over Utah) I would be so much better and I would be alert in case that plane becomes a flaming ball of fire and I have a chance to save myself.
Anyone have any suggestions?
Oh, Just Shut Up and Lie Down Somewhere
8 hours ago